My entire life I have struggled with a debilitating illness known as OTM. Now before you call the prayer team or text me, I have to tell you that it was my mom that diagnosed me. She has treated her fair share of bumps and bruises in my lifetime, like that time I rode my dirt bike wearing only my shorts and wrecked, but I somewhat doubt her ability to diagnose an illnesses.
What is OTM? One Track Mind. I can be quite obsessive, not the I-keep-everything-clean-ALL-the-time obsess, but still I can stay pretty locked on to something. I obsess over Netflix shows, what I’m getting for Christmas, coffee, getting to events on time-when I get something in my head, I keep going at it.
I’m not saying this is always a bad thing. Sometimes being obsessive is good. It helps me stay focused and complete a task, but if I can’t complete the task I can get very frustrated. It’s not just tasks that I can obsess over, but like any other human I am constantly thinking about my future. For Millennials the future is uncertain, there no longer exists one set path that will lead you to success. People must now “forge their own path.” They have to create a job or compete with countless other qualified people for a job. I had a plan for my future, but just like 99% of everyone else, those plans changed.
When I decided I would follow God instead of trying to forge my own path, things got difficult. We talk about it, but I don’t think we fully realize that following God’s plans can be hard, confusing, and dare-I-say frustrating. Yes I will say it, it is at times extremely frustrating. Especially for one who struggles with a severe case of OTM. I constantly stressed over my future. I knew God called me, but after that I had no idea.
Having no idea about the future is hard for me, and I know it’s probably hard for you too. In fact, my top two strengths on my Gallup Strength finder test are Futuristic and Strategic. I always want to have an idea of what’s going to happen in the future so I can plan for it. In churches, at least the ones I know, this can sometimes be looked down on. We say think like “just trust God’s plan” or “It’s all in God’s timing.” These can be true but they’re still hard to swallow. We like to cover things up with church-y talk but if we’re being honest, we would all love to know what the future holds. Here’s the thing though, it’s not going to happen. You will probably never know exactly what your life will hold. Would that be any fun? Here’s what I’ve learned though: Trust God step by step instead of trying to figure it all out ahead of time. Tweet This
You’re blessed when you stay on course,
walking steadily on the road revealed by God.
You’re blessed when you follow his directions,
doing your best to find him.
You don’t have to know the destination, you just have to stay on the path. Tweet This If you’re like me, God has probably given you a direction to go or a something to do. We need to start walking down that path or do the small things that he has called us to do. We want to know the end before we even start, but that’s not what God’s word tells us to do. It says that God knows the end from the beginning, not us. No matter how frustrating it is or how many times we pray God will “reveal” it, sometimes he just isn't going to.
The only thing that we can do is stay on the course. Each time he gives you a direction-follow it. Don’t hesitate! When we follow God’s directions it doesn’t say that we’ll make it through or that we’ll be ok, the Bible says that we will be blessed! Find peace in knowing that you will be blessed, even in the times of the frustrating unknown. God is still guiding you and will be with you when you do your best to find him.